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PART TWO: I Was a Level 5 Scientologist. Then I Found What Scientology and Nazis Actually Share | Jon Atack

What if the roots of modern cults, extremist politics, and even today’s “wellness” movements trace back to Nazi occultism, hypnotic manipulation, and one of the most controversial religions in the world? In this explosive episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Jon Atack — the world’s leading expert on authoritarian cults and a former Scientologist who has spent over 40 years investigating its origins — reveals the shocking connections no one talks about. Drawing from his groundbreaking book If Scientology Ruled the World: Nazi Occultists, Sex Magick, Space Aliens, and the Second Coming, Jon uncovers how occult beliefs influenced the Nazi Party… and how those same ideas shaped Scientology. Jon Atack breaks down: - How L. Ron Hubbard repackaged occult practices (including hypnotic techniques, repetition, fixation, and mimicry) and sold them as revolutionary “science” - Outlandish promises that hooked followers: supernatural powers, immunity to illness, genius-level IQ, emotional mastery - How Hubbard’s early interest in psychology morphed into the darker techniques behind Dianetics - Hidden factors in Hubbard’s personal life (addiction, PTSD, and legal trouble for practicing medicine without a license) that shaped what Scientology would become - Allegations of how followers were treated, including psychological and physical abuse - Frightening recourse Jon himself faced for speaking out Jon also shares his deeply personal story of joining, and ultimately escaping, Scientology. He reveals the major red flags he ignored at first… and the first warning sign you should always look for before joining any movement or ideology. But this conversation goes far beyond Scientology. We also cover: - What actually defines a cult or authoritarian group - How recruitment tactics are now supercharged by the internet and social media - Where dangerous occult practices are still hiding in plain sight - Surprising benefits and dangers of hypnotherapy - How to distinguish modern spirituality from manipulative occult systems - Why today’s political climate often mirrors cult dynamics - Why healthy skepticism might be the most important survival skill of the digital age This isn’t about throwing away all ideology or spirituality. It’s about learning how to extract the good without falling for manipulation. If you care about psychology, cults, spirituality, politics, authoritarian movements, mind control, or the hidden forces shaping modern society…this is a conversation you cannot afford to miss.

I Was a Level 5 Scientologist. Then I Found What Scientology and Nazis Actually Share | Jon Atack

What if the roots of modern cults, extremist politics, and even today’s “wellness” movements trace back to Nazi occultism, hypnotic manipulation, and one of the most controversial religions in the world? In this explosive episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Jon Atack — the world’s leading expert on authoritarian cults and a former Scientologist who has spent over 40 years investigating its origins — reveals the shocking connections no one talks about. Drawing from his groundbreaking book If Scientology Ruled the World: Nazi Occultists, Sex Magick, Space Aliens, and the Second Coming, Jon uncovers how occult beliefs influenced the Nazi Party… and how those same ideas shaped Scientology. Jon Atack breaks down: - How L. Ron Hubbard repackaged occult practices (including hypnotic techniques, repetition, fixation, and mimicry) and sold them as revolutionary “science” - Outlandish promises that hooked followers: supernatural powers, immunity to illness, genius-level IQ, emotional mastery - How Hubbard’s early interest in psychology morphed into the darker techniques behind Dianetics - Hidden factors in Hubbard’s personal life (addiction, PTSD, and legal trouble for practicing medicine without a license) that shaped what Scientology would become - Allegations of how followers were treated, including psychological and physical abuse - Frightening recourse Jon himself faced for speaking out Jon also shares his deeply personal story of joining, and ultimately escaping, Scientology. He reveals the major red flags he ignored at first… and the first warning sign you should always look for before joining any movement or ideology. But this conversation goes far beyond Scientology. We also cover: - What actually defines a cult or authoritarian group - How recruitment tactics are now supercharged by the internet and social media - Where dangerous occult practices are still hiding in plain sight - Surprising benefits and dangers of hypnotherapy - How to distinguish modern spirituality from manipulative occult systems - Why today’s political climate often mirrors cult dynamics - Why healthy skepticism might be the most important survival skill of the digital age This isn’t about throwing away all ideology or spirituality. It’s about learning how to extract the good without falling for manipulation. If you care about psychology, cults, spirituality, politics, authoritarian movements, mind control, or the hidden forces shaping modern society…this is a conversation you cannot afford to miss.

Substack Live Re-Air: Can The Mind Access Information Beyond Itself?

Today we’re sharing something special that was previously only available over on our Substack page! Mayim and Jonathan lead the Breaker community in an inquiry into the nature of knowing, experiencing, and being. They discuss two of our most recent episodes: the neuroscientific mysteries and shocking disclosure of lead “Telepathy Tapes” scientist, Dr. Julia Mossbridge as well as the social “five-alarm fire” plaguing men, as tackled by Scott Galloway. In This Live: * Mayim tries Remote Viewing: We go behind the scenes of the Remote Viewing exercise from the Dr. Mossbridge episode, with Mayim explaining her attempts to quiet her analytical, scientific mind in order to access a non-linear, intuitive state. Dr. Mossbridge suggests that we are all capable of accessing untapped cognitive ability with the goal of expanding our intuitive senses and making connections we’ve been trained to ignore. * A Missing History & Covert Operations? Dr. Mossbridge discusses her recent book which led her to reveal childhood memories of being tested in elementary school while given a “pink drink” as well as evidence of redacted records from that time. The Breaker community shares that they have similar memories of school testing in the 1970s - are these related?! * The “Yes-Bot” and the Numbing Trap: Scott Galloway rang a “five-alarm fire” with his recent book, Notes On Being A Man, and Mayim and Jonathan discuss how women are paying the price for a generation of men who numb out through video games, pornography, gambling apps, and “Yes-Bots.” With two-thirds of men under 18 currently in a “relationship” with an AI entity, we explore how this can stunt emotional development and the impact men numbing out has on all of us. As always, the Breaker community brings a vibrant and enthusiastic set of questions, as well as a growing sense of getting to know Mayim and Jonathan - and each other - better through these discussions. We are so happy Dr. Mossbridge and Scott’s episodes engendered such a lively - and hilarious - conversation!

Re-Air: Alanis Morissette: Self-Care is No Longer a Luxury

Today, in honor of Eating Disorders Awareness Week, we’re revisiting one of our very popular episodes from way back in 2022 with singer, songwriter, musician, Alanis Morissette. Alanis Morissette (singer, songwriter, musician) breaks down different versions of restoration, the dangers of intolerance and a lack of boundary-setting, and the beauty of anger as a catalyst for positive change. She explains why meditation may not be for everyone, the benefits of guided meditations, and her approach to creating her new meditation album. Alanis opens up about the origins of her disordered eating, her prophetic visions about her career, and the dangers of turning anger inward. Mayim and Jonathan discuss the reasons we project our parents’ relationship onto our own partners, cranial sacral therapy, and what it means to truly rest. Stick around until the end to hear Mayim sing and dissect Alanis’s lyrics!

PART TWO: Medical Miracle? The Stanford PhD Who Met Her Higher Self & Healed Instantly (Science Can’t Explain)

What if your spiritual awakening was so powerful, you thought you were being mind controlled? In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Sadhvi Bhagawati Saraswati — global spiritual leader and bestselling author of Come Home to Yourself and Hollywood to the Himalayas — reveals the raw, unfiltered truth about the awakening that shattered her old identity and opened her to a universal realization: everything is connected through unconditional love. But it didn’t start peacefully. At first, she thought she was losing her mind. From a science-trained skeptic to a spiritual teacher living in the Himalayas, Sadhviji shares what divinity actually feels like in the body, what happens when your attachment to your identity explodes, and why her awakening was so radical it led to the end of her marriage. Sadhviji breaks down: - Her journey through disordered eating, trauma, abandonment, and codependency before awakening - Why healing childhood wounds is essential so adult triggers stop running your life - Physical process of releasing anger, pain, and stored trauma from the body - What’s really holding most of us back from spiritual experiences - How she resists physical temptations and stays grounded in spiritual discipline - Freedom that comes from “Breaking Free of the Self” - How to integrate smaller spiritual experiences (even if you haven’t had a lightning-bolt awakening) - Power of holy and sacred places for us as energetic beings - How divine intelligence in nature reveals the “unexplainable” - Why coming into everything with an open heart changes your entire reality With her background in science, Sadhviji also shares her fascinating perspective on watching quantum physics slowly catch up in attempting to explain mystical truths sages have known for millennia, and what it will actually take to spark a global spiritual awakening (hint: it’s not as impossible as we think) This isn’t just a spiritual story. It’s a blueprint for healing, awakening, and living in radical love. If you’ve ever questioned reality, longed for deeper truth, struggled with trauma, or wondered whether awakening is real, this conversation may change everything.

Medical Miracle? The Stanford PhD Who Met Her Higher Self & Healed Instantly (Science Can’t Explain)

What if your spiritual awakening was so powerful, you thought you were being mind controlled? In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Sadhvi Bhagawati Saraswati — global spiritual leader and bestselling author of Come Home to Yourself and Hollywood to the Himalayas — reveals the raw, unfiltered truth about the awakening that shattered her old identity and opened her to a universal realization: everything is connected through unconditional love. But it didn’t start peacefully. At first, she thought she was losing her mind. From a science-trained skeptic to a spiritual teacher living in the Himalayas, Sadhviji shares what divinity actually feels like in the body, what happens when your attachment to your identity explodes, and why her awakening was so radical it led to the end of her marriage. Sadhviji breaks down: - Her journey through disordered eating, trauma, abandonment, and codependency before awakening - Why healing childhood wounds is essential so adult triggers stop running your life - Physical process of releasing anger, pain, and stored trauma from the body - What’s really holding most of us back from spiritual experiences - How she resists physical temptations and stays grounded in spiritual discipline - Freedom that comes from “Breaking Free of the Self” - How to integrate smaller spiritual experiences (even if you haven’t had a lightning-bolt awakening) - Power of holy and sacred places for us as energetic beings - How divine intelligence in nature reveals the “unexplainable” - Why coming into everything with an open heart changes your entire reality With her background in science, Sadhviji also shares her fascinating perspective on watching quantum physics slowly catch up in attempting to explain mystical truths sages have known for millennia, and what it will actually take to spark a global spiritual awakening (hint: it’s not as impossible as we think) This isn’t just a spiritual story. It’s a blueprint for healing, awakening, and living in radical love. If you’ve ever questioned reality, longed for deeper truth, struggled with trauma, or wondered whether awakening is real, this conversation may change everything.

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PART TWO: I Was a Level 5 Scientologist. Then I Found What Scientology and Nazis Actually Share | Jon Atack

What if the roots of modern cults, extremist politics, and even today’s “wellness” movements trace back to Nazi occultism, hypnotic manipulation, and one of the most controversial religions in the world? In this explosive episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Jon Atack — the world’s leading expert on authoritarian cults and a former Scientologist who has spent over 40 years investigating its origins — reveals the shocking connections no one talks about. Drawing from his groundbreaking book If Scientology Ruled the World: Nazi Occultists, Sex Magick, Space Aliens, and the Second Coming, Jon uncovers how occult beliefs influenced the Nazi Party… and how those same ideas shaped Scientology. Jon Atack breaks down: - How L. Ron Hubbard repackaged occult practices (including hypnotic techniques, repetition, fixation, and mimicry) and sold them as revolutionary “science” - Outlandish promises that hooked followers: supernatural powers, immunity to illness, genius-level IQ, emotional mastery - How Hubbard’s early interest in psychology morphed into the darker techniques behind Dianetics - Hidden factors in Hubbard’s personal life (addiction, PTSD, and legal trouble for practicing medicine without a license) that shaped what Scientology would become - Allegations of how followers were treated, including psychological and physical abuse - Frightening recourse Jon himself faced for speaking out Jon also shares his deeply personal story of joining, and ultimately escaping, Scientology. He reveals the major red flags he ignored at first… and the first warning sign you should always look for before joining any movement or ideology. But this conversation goes far beyond Scientology. We also cover: - What actually defines a cult or authoritarian group - How recruitment tactics are now supercharged by the internet and social media - Where dangerous occult practices are still hiding in plain sight - Surprising benefits and dangers of hypnotherapy - How to distinguish modern spirituality from manipulative occult systems - Why today’s political climate often mirrors cult dynamics - Why healthy skepticism might be the most important survival skill of the digital age This isn’t about throwing away all ideology or spirituality. It’s about learning how to extract the good without falling for manipulation. If you care about psychology, cults, spirituality, politics, authoritarian movements, mind control, or the hidden forces shaping modern society…this is a conversation you cannot afford to miss.

I Was a Level 5 Scientologist. Then I Found What Scientology and Nazis Actually Share | Jon Atack

What if the roots of modern cults, extremist politics, and even today’s “wellness” movements trace back to Nazi occultism, hypnotic manipulation, and one of the most controversial religions in the world? In this explosive episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Jon Atack — the world’s leading expert on authoritarian cults and a former Scientologist who has spent over 40 years investigating its origins — reveals the shocking connections no one talks about. Drawing from his groundbreaking book If Scientology Ruled the World: Nazi Occultists, Sex Magick, Space Aliens, and the Second Coming, Jon uncovers how occult beliefs influenced the Nazi Party… and how those same ideas shaped Scientology. Jon Atack breaks down: - How L. Ron Hubbard repackaged occult practices (including hypnotic techniques, repetition, fixation, and mimicry) and sold them as revolutionary “science” - Outlandish promises that hooked followers: supernatural powers, immunity to illness, genius-level IQ, emotional mastery - How Hubbard’s early interest in psychology morphed into the darker techniques behind Dianetics - Hidden factors in Hubbard’s personal life (addiction, PTSD, and legal trouble for practicing medicine without a license) that shaped what Scientology would become - Allegations of how followers were treated, including psychological and physical abuse - Frightening recourse Jon himself faced for speaking out Jon also shares his deeply personal story of joining, and ultimately escaping, Scientology. He reveals the major red flags he ignored at first… and the first warning sign you should always look for before joining any movement or ideology. But this conversation goes far beyond Scientology. We also cover: - What actually defines a cult or authoritarian group - How recruitment tactics are now supercharged by the internet and social media - Where dangerous occult practices are still hiding in plain sight - Surprising benefits and dangers of hypnotherapy - How to distinguish modern spirituality from manipulative occult systems - Why today’s political climate often mirrors cult dynamics - Why healthy skepticism might be the most important survival skill of the digital age This isn’t about throwing away all ideology or spirituality. It’s about learning how to extract the good without falling for manipulation. If you care about psychology, cults, spirituality, politics, authoritarian movements, mind control, or the hidden forces shaping modern society…this is a conversation you cannot afford to miss.

Substack Live Re-Air: Can The Mind Access Information Beyond Itself?

Today we’re sharing something special that was previously only available over on our Substack page! Mayim and Jonathan lead the Breaker community in an inquiry into the nature of knowing, experiencing, and being. They discuss two of our most recent episodes: the neuroscientific mysteries and shocking disclosure of lead “Telepathy Tapes” scientist, Dr. Julia Mossbridge as well as the social “five-alarm fire” plaguing men, as tackled by Scott Galloway. In This Live: * Mayim tries Remote Viewing: We go behind the scenes of the Remote Viewing exercise from the Dr. Mossbridge episode, with Mayim explaining her attempts to quiet her analytical, scientific mind in order to access a non-linear, intuitive state. Dr. Mossbridge suggests that we are all capable of accessing untapped cognitive ability with the goal of expanding our intuitive senses and making connections we’ve been trained to ignore. * A Missing History & Covert Operations? Dr. Mossbridge discusses her recent book which led her to reveal childhood memories of being tested in elementary school while given a “pink drink” as well as evidence of redacted records from that time. The Breaker community shares that they have similar memories of school testing in the 1970s - are these related?! * The “Yes-Bot” and the Numbing Trap: Scott Galloway rang a “five-alarm fire” with his recent book, Notes On Being A Man, and Mayim and Jonathan discuss how women are paying the price for a generation of men who numb out through video games, pornography, gambling apps, and “Yes-Bots.” With two-thirds of men under 18 currently in a “relationship” with an AI entity, we explore how this can stunt emotional development and the impact men numbing out has on all of us. As always, the Breaker community brings a vibrant and enthusiastic set of questions, as well as a growing sense of getting to know Mayim and Jonathan - and each other - better through these discussions. We are so happy Dr. Mossbridge and Scott’s episodes engendered such a lively - and hilarious - conversation!

Re-Air: Alanis Morissette: Self-Care is No Longer a Luxury

Today, in honor of Eating Disorders Awareness Week, we’re revisiting one of our very popular episodes from way back in 2022 with singer, songwriter, musician, Alanis Morissette. Alanis Morissette (singer, songwriter, musician) breaks down different versions of restoration, the dangers of intolerance and a lack of boundary-setting, and the beauty of anger as a catalyst for positive change. She explains why meditation may not be for everyone, the benefits of guided meditations, and her approach to creating her new meditation album. Alanis opens up about the origins of her disordered eating, her prophetic visions about her career, and the dangers of turning anger inward. Mayim and Jonathan discuss the reasons we project our parents’ relationship onto our own partners, cranial sacral therapy, and what it means to truly rest. Stick around until the end to hear Mayim sing and dissect Alanis’s lyrics!

PART TWO: Medical Miracle? The Stanford PhD Who Met Her Higher Self & Healed Instantly (Science Can’t Explain)

What if your spiritual awakening was so powerful, you thought you were being mind controlled? In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Sadhvi Bhagawati Saraswati — global spiritual leader and bestselling author of Come Home to Yourself and Hollywood to the Himalayas — reveals the raw, unfiltered truth about the awakening that shattered her old identity and opened her to a universal realization: everything is connected through unconditional love. But it didn’t start peacefully. At first, she thought she was losing her mind. From a science-trained skeptic to a spiritual teacher living in the Himalayas, Sadhviji shares what divinity actually feels like in the body, what happens when your attachment to your identity explodes, and why her awakening was so radical it led to the end of her marriage. Sadhviji breaks down: - Her journey through disordered eating, trauma, abandonment, and codependency before awakening - Why healing childhood wounds is essential so adult triggers stop running your life - Physical process of releasing anger, pain, and stored trauma from the body - What’s really holding most of us back from spiritual experiences - How she resists physical temptations and stays grounded in spiritual discipline - Freedom that comes from “Breaking Free of the Self” - How to integrate smaller spiritual experiences (even if you haven’t had a lightning-bolt awakening) - Power of holy and sacred places for us as energetic beings - How divine intelligence in nature reveals the “unexplainable” - Why coming into everything with an open heart changes your entire reality With her background in science, Sadhviji also shares her fascinating perspective on watching quantum physics slowly catch up in attempting to explain mystical truths sages have known for millennia, and what it will actually take to spark a global spiritual awakening (hint: it’s not as impossible as we think) This isn’t just a spiritual story. It’s a blueprint for healing, awakening, and living in radical love. If you’ve ever questioned reality, longed for deeper truth, struggled with trauma, or wondered whether awakening is real, this conversation may change everything.

Medical Miracle? The Stanford PhD Who Met Her Higher Self & Healed Instantly (Science Can’t Explain)

What if your spiritual awakening was so powerful, you thought you were being mind controlled? In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Sadhvi Bhagawati Saraswati — global spiritual leader and bestselling author of Come Home to Yourself and Hollywood to the Himalayas — reveals the raw, unfiltered truth about the awakening that shattered her old identity and opened her to a universal realization: everything is connected through unconditional love. But it didn’t start peacefully. At first, she thought she was losing her mind. From a science-trained skeptic to a spiritual teacher living in the Himalayas, Sadhviji shares what divinity actually feels like in the body, what happens when your attachment to your identity explodes, and why her awakening was so radical it led to the end of her marriage. Sadhviji breaks down: - Her journey through disordered eating, trauma, abandonment, and codependency before awakening - Why healing childhood wounds is essential so adult triggers stop running your life - Physical process of releasing anger, pain, and stored trauma from the body - What’s really holding most of us back from spiritual experiences - How she resists physical temptations and stays grounded in spiritual discipline - Freedom that comes from “Breaking Free of the Self” - How to integrate smaller spiritual experiences (even if you haven’t had a lightning-bolt awakening) - Power of holy and sacred places for us as energetic beings - How divine intelligence in nature reveals the “unexplainable” - Why coming into everything with an open heart changes your entire reality With her background in science, Sadhviji also shares her fascinating perspective on watching quantum physics slowly catch up in attempting to explain mystical truths sages have known for millennia, and what it will actually take to spark a global spiritual awakening (hint: it’s not as impossible as we think) This isn’t just a spiritual story. It’s a blueprint for healing, awakening, and living in radical love. If you’ve ever questioned reality, longed for deeper truth, struggled with trauma, or wondered whether awakening is real, this conversation may change everything.

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